Missing Maggie

Now I have decided that a separate page is not the place to post about missing Maggie, I will do it here on her main page.  Here is what I wrote a couple of days ago:

I let Maggie go three days ago on Wednesday June 2, 2010.  I have been thinking about updating her blog and our signature in the forums, but I’m not up to it yet.

I thought I would start a new page in our blog to detail this new part of my life’s journey without Maggie.  I don’t know how long I will post on this page, but I wanted a separate place to talk about losing my companion of 11 years and how Tani and I are adapting.

When I got home with Tani on Wednesday night the house seemed quiet.  It was an odd feeling because it was never that noisy with both of the girls around.  I guess I was just feeling the void left by Maggie’s departure.  I immediately got rid of all of the bad stuff related to the last couple of months- I cleaned up the meds, got rid of the last bag of sub-Q fluids, and put away all the incontinence pads and rags I had strategically placed in all the rooms of the house.  I left her bowl, beds, and blankets out.  All of the toys remain too, Tani is the one who plays with most of them anyway.

Friday evening I took Tani for our first walk alone together since Maggie was recovering from her amp.  We ran into a couple of people we know at the park- well we know their dogs, I don’t know most of humans names.  One of them looked at me walking only with Tani and she said “oh no”, and gave me a hug.  Some things don’t need too many words.  She lost her long time companion in March to lymphoma and is now trying to get used to her new young dog.

I know I did the right thing by Maggie on Wednesday, but that knowledge does not make it any easier or less sad.  All that will fix this is time.

Here are a couple of pictures I took last weekend.  The quality is not great because I used my cell phone.

This is Maggie at the park on Sunday, May 30th:

Actually the grass is in focus, I guess I need more practice with the camera.

This is a picture of Maggie with the Mag Tag from the set of RENT.

I helped build the set at the local College and the designer let me put this up.  Read the story in the original forum post.

Author: krun15

Maggie was a little black pug born in 1999. On September 7, 2006 she lost her left rear leg to a mast cell tumor. Because of lymph node involvement Maggie went through a 6 month chemo regimen. She was given 6 to 9 months after her amp, but she beat mast cell cancer! In the winter of 2010 things started to slide; in the course of about 2 months she had 2 MCTs removed, was diagnosed with incontinence and kidney failure, and then the big blow- oral melanoma. She lived her carefree tri-pug life until she crossed over on June 2, 2010.

5 thoughts on “Missing Maggie”

  1. Karen–You’ve been in my thoughts. I know the stillness you experienced Wednesday night–I’ve experienced it too. It seems to have some quality that can’t be described. Something like holding your breath.

    Those are great, precious pictures of Maggie.


  2. Karen,

    My heart goes out to you…I, too, have been thinking of you. I love the two pictures…especially the one of her smiling at you at the park. What an incredible fight she gave! TriPug Power at its finest for sure.


    Tracy & the “other” Maggie

  3. We’re here for you, Karen. And are keeping you in our hearts…
    Sending lots of hugs across the miles,
    Holly and Zuzu and Susan
    PS – I loved the pictures, especially the one of Maggie at the park. She looks so happy! She’ll always be one of our heros.

  4. I’m always amazed at how quiet a home can become.

    We are here for you and Tani. I like the picture from the 30th,
    Maggie had a great smile, we miss her a ton.

    Hope to see you Saturday.

    the chauffeur

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